Today was light, and full of fragrants sweet
The winged clouds made winds for the birds
And I watched them soaring in delight,
Their music never touched my heart,
Nor did those sites or smells of loveliness
I stared past them with little interest – unseeing
I was too busy lying in my hammock full of thoughts
As still as I appeared, my world was a torrent
All that beauty rolling past – And Me
Trapped in the wickedness of my own mind
There is a channel, so deep, perhaps bottomless
When thoughts run cold and harsh and cruel
Standing there before it every time –
I could jump – Into that nothingness
I would find myself there – waiting to be found
One click – would free the mouse from the rats race
I haven’t found this out just yet, or I’m not ready
I merely stop and gape warily into the emptiness
I have been made comfortable by these notions
Albeit harsh and cruel – they help me feel
Justified – Where I make enemies, I am blameless.
What is this malware that has infected me?
This hate, jealousy, envy, greed, malice – this deception
I came with clear and precise intent – with Love
I came empty of all lies – I came knowing Truth
Not as one has knowledge of say, this thing or that –
No. I knew Truth as One knows Breath, yet
Now it fades into the background – I watch it as it goes
Like the slow draping of the veil – and Me
Shrouding myself within it as though it be my comforter
I have loved my lies; they have offered me greatness
I can stand upon them and be above all else that is.
All along those bugs were hidden in that apple – yet we eat
Stuck in our illusions we take our bytes daily – running
The programs written by others while we
Hide in sleep mode – our own creative energy
Charging someone else’s PC – In a binary world
And no firewall for protection – just
Garbage in – garbage out – boringly – blindly – until we freeze
Then Ctrl Alt Delete – Close – Restart
Up and running again – This is not our race
There was a time we had no faulty Operating System
May we flip the switch and return to ourselves……….Factory Reset
I watched the sprinkler as it click clicked to the right Then it swung in an arch and went left in great flight As that water sprayed down and it moistened the earth Which had just been bone dry and hampered by dearth A small blade of grass in its death had been bent But now reaching upward it made its ascent And I mused as a watched and I smiled with a nod For I too had been parched and forlorn like that sod And just when I thought I would die where I lay The heavens rained down and drove darkness away
Thousands of ME’s From Infant to Old Illusions of form that I chose That I might traverse this place All the way from Birth to Death That I happily bequeathed To Myself before coming Let Me not forget that I agreed to Love them All
My eyes are made to see the worlds things My vision is made to see what lies beyond I can conceive of it only in the well of my Being When the mind and body are stilled I move out of the illusion and into eternity Where all that has been dreamed awaits Me Where both heaven and hell are Mine for the taking
~ It’s the same for you, even though you are unaware.
The sun found me hiding behind the window It crept up and peaked in with its golden rays Not even my closed eyelids could keep it out With a smile I greeted it and it gave in return The promise of warmth and a new day Reminding me that it was mine to create All energy is boundless – I Am Free My spirit knows all too well and is singing This – The Song of the Sun
I came dragging my feet the whole way. The end of the path felt contemptuous, like an angry death! That is exactly what it was – the old me – refusing to die. I had to let go, it would be the only Way. I could stay here, at the end and die the slow death of life, Or I could leap across the divide, to the tiny stone that lay before me. I would totter there, I could see – space enough for barely one footing. It was time to go and the only enemy to my leaving was my fear, But I was never held slave to that for long.
P.S. Just so you know, in the end, I had to be pushed.
I see you, watching just beyond the shadow of my life, holding anger like a shield. I feel your flickering doubt despite the armor of pretense hidden in your charge. It isn’t enough though, is it, to tame the flame of fear and cause you strength that might draw you near to me? I will hold no blame for words of destruction that flitter your ear and cause such gnawing suspicion to erode like rust the fortitude of our mettle. I know all to well the power of words to create, and to destroy. Those black magics need not be true in order for them to change the illusions of life, and no amount of religiosity can paint a halo where horns be. If anyone has ears to hear, let them hear. I have bound all my judgments to heavy stones and have cast them far off from myself. There is no bitterness that serves me, nor is there one moment of my life hastily given over to anything other than what delights me. I have caused a healing to well up like a spring of living water, and all who come will find the rejoicing powers of Life therein. I will pour out my blessing and anyone who partakes will awaken to their own sovereignty, and know the truth of divinity. That they too are as I Am.
I once walked down the path of darkness Only to know its essence and to feel its depth To understand my many faceted side The good and the bad – so I might love them both I am the sinner and the saint alike The harbinger of joy and death the same I can strike you down with my words or lift you I will show myself to you as a mirror Behold yourself – for we are the same