The me you see is but a shadow of that which I Am. As I dance upon the screen, the very image of life is but my story, and me the puppet, playing out in time. In amazement I watch as it rolls before my eyes, and I, the spectator, appear before Myself, as though small, (a creation of Myself in Mine Own Minds Eye). Yet, the moment arrived when My shadow hesitantly turned and witnessed Myself as I Am ~ THE ONE WHO SHINES! Now, having turned back once again to the shadow world, she marvels and delights in madness at that which We see.
I know what it is to be fire. I have gazed deeply within that blaze and pondered at its Isness. I have watched those flames lick upon the branch with a tenderness that no righteousness could withstand leaving all that hardness a milky dust. Yes, I know what it is to be fire.
I closed my eyes, and she was there, standing before me in the void. I reached deep within myself, into a locked and treasured recess of my being, and tore out a ridiculously small heart that I had vehemently protected for far too long. I clasped her wrist, shoving it into her outstretched palm, “Here! Take it!” she looked down at the smallness of it. “What is this,” she asked, looking at me in dismay. “It is ALL the love you ever gave Me”, I whispered. Then I turned and walked away knowing our time together was complete, and that she was right when she had said we would never be friends.
Beneath the gleaning of my soul, a winter’s icy road does track the weight of my journey’s tread. Another step a little nearer, and a little nearer still.
This season ends on that hellish frosts thaw. These many years where death sought my soul. Not even sorrow could kill the Light that leads Me. Another step a little farther, and a little farther still.
I see beyond my reach, a new vision burns. That glaciered mountain melts before me in its heat. My thirsty heart is healed by those Living Waters, and She beckons. Another step a little nearer, and a little farther still!
Matthew 26:39 And after going a little farther, He fell face down and prayed, saying,“My Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from Me; yet not as I will, but as You will.”
I danced upon the moon, and no one noticed. I climbed upon a star and shot myself like a sling Across the galaxy very very far – and no one saw. I blinked an eye and disappeared to a world beyond And no one asked – where did she go? Because though I’d left – I was never really gone.
I have created around myself a barrier of such magnitude, a pulsating beating living energy that can only be penetrated by pure acts of Love, genuinely bestowed in a manner of good intention. Anything else will hit upon this wall, and reverberate back into the nothingness from which it came, and All will be aware of its powerless effects.
I have seen her there behind the couch, hiding in the shadows from angry words. Her tormentor; An empty bottle looming over her. The broken glass. The shattered pots. A green leaf floating slowly down. Time stops, as it makes its way to the soiled floor with a crash of silence. A tear falls. All is quiet for a while. Until the bottle steals away the hour once more.
I have seen her there behind the couch, hiding in the shadows, and at first I am afraid. But then her laughter brings me back. Soft spoken lullabies. Scattered toys. Boo! She yells, and runs across the crisp clean floor. A race ensues. I win, grasping her in my arms with a crash of silence. A tear falls. All is quiet for a while. Until her laughter steals away the hour once more.